.Saturday, April 24, 2010 ' 21:43 Y
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its within you.
i got no one to disturb...
bro flew off to australia.
so im bored although i need to work on fyp.
stay up late to transfer videos for him to pass to big bro.
but i forgot the most important video.
opps~
most important thing!
i saw JANG GEUN SUK with my very own eyes yesterday!
head to IMM with the science pig despite the freaking heavy rain.
OMG! he's so cute and hot!
he and his "bang bang" and "kiss my ass"! LOL!
okies. enough. i need to work on fyp already.
damn!
. ' 02:23 Y
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im feeling better.
busy busy busy!
so much so that im freaking tired!
but its only the 2nd week of school.. ):
all of my team mates finished their research parts for FYP.
now its left with me, all me.
after IEP, i get loads of weird questions.
questions that cannot be researched through the web.
its madness, im trying my best...
.Wednesday, April 21, 2010 ' 01:28 Y
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the pain of losing you.
maybe not bidding you the last goodbye was a good thing.
it would make me more selfish as it will be harder to let you go.
just thinking about it makes me tear in regret.
i could hardly concentrate in class.
images of you lying there with your eyes shut keeps flashing in my mind.
i kept looking at the time,
wondering if you have arrived safely in jarkata.
just... all that kind of thoughts.
those distractions couldnt last long.
cant believe a person with little tears would still be crying now.
just leave me alone for awhile.
comforting would make more tears drop.
.Monday, April 19, 2010 ' 23:59 Y
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buckets of tears just for you.
i promised myself not to cry.
i promised myself to see him happily for the last time.
but i couldnt do so.
forgive me for not being able to smile when seeing you.
forgive me for not being able to send you off tomorrow.
oh my dear boy.
there's so much things i have yet to tell you.
there's so much things i have yet to do with you and the section.
you didnt wait for the section t..
but you know what?
im really proud of you.
for everything you have done; especially fighting this battle.
i am and will always loving you.
your frail, cold and stiff body.
i could hardly recognize you.
i burst into tears everytime i look at you.
but i took the courage to touch you and even gave you a little shake,
hoping i would get some respond from you.
but it was all my imagination..
i couldnt bring myself to talk to you though..
i got loads of things to tell you,
but i guess what i really wanted to say is
"can you wake up? you are torturing me.".
i only want to remember the healthy egan,
not the egan lying coldly in there which i could hardly recognize just now.
lets keep all those unspoken words between you, my heart and i.
my boy, words can never express everything i want you to know.
i chose to put this photo of you,
cus its what i saw on that table..
in loving memory,
Egan Supharta Mercubuwono
25th sept 1994 - 18 apr 2010
.Sunday, April 18, 2010 ' 23:32 Y
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a fact i have to face.
he's gone.
he has left.
he left me in tears, in pain.
he left me guilty and regretful.
i blame myself for not being able to take time out to visit him the past months.
i have been questioning myself what have he done to deserve this?
life is just unfair.
boy, i wont shed another tear.
for you have fought a tough battle and deserve a good rest.
for i should be happy that all your sufferings and pains are gone.
all i hope now is for you to always be healthy and happy on the other side.
all those memories wont be forgotten.
i love you.
In Loving Memory,
Egan Supharta
25th sept 1994 - 18th apr 2010
.Thursday, April 15, 2010 ' 23:59 Y
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life of a year 3.
school started today.
its a freaking retarded day of the week to start.
argh!
new class, mostly new classmates.
thank god kenneth was there to make this less awkward.
i... should be able to survive this 15weeks right?
why is the school so screwed up?
got a change of project and advisor for the second time.
and we were only informed today.
project topic also didnt inform us,
only inform us to meet our advisor tomorrow.
like totally what the hell?!
chung lim looks hot in eyeliner~
.Monday, April 12, 2010 ' 23:59 Y
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super good mood!
met up with geannie today~
its been long since i met her!
ate and shopped!
i kind of regretted considering too much.
i should have just bought it!
saw colin chia in the mrt today!
didnt say hi cus he was at the other door.
i doubt he remembers me that he taught me in lower sec too.
2 days to school year 3!
omg. hate it.
.Saturday, April 10, 2010 ' 23:59 Y
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bing bing bing!
congratulation, kids!
you guys deserved it!
im really proud of you guys!
you guys rocked the stage man!
hearing others praising you guys makes me even more proud!
♥♥♥♥♥♥!
i just realized something.
i learnt this from band: throwing away your image when necessary.
if i were to be shy and stuff,
i doubt i could ever pull through all those gimmicks for marching SYF.
but that's a problem too.
i have a hard time trying to maintain my image now. LOL.
credits: cavver777
.Thursday, April 8, 2010 ' 23:08 Y
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1 more day!
finally!
im left with 1 day!
happy yet sad.
i will miss the nice people (colleagues).
i will forget my evil manager.
you evil manager
everytime i have come to look at you from another light,
you brought it back to square one on your own.
so irritating!
thanks to you wanting a sudden meeting,
i have missed a very important call.
and its not the kind where calling back makes a difference.
i hope my internet works at work tomorrow.
if not, im so dead!
oh yes!
kuddos to peixin concert band!
congrats for your sustaining gold with honors!! ♥
