eek!

i went out just to get my hair straightened.
but i was forced to spend!
my mummy is evil.
she forced me out of bed at 10+am.
she stuffed food into my mouth despite being freaking full.
she forced me to buy my baby niece a present.
LOL.

i decided not to chop off my hair.
i got so many big responds to it.
so left it as it is.

i really have to rush my PP.
die also must submit on friday.
cus i know my advisor will reject it.
heh!

what was i doing?
argh!

hungry..

i think i will have a phobia of kids soon enough.
kids nowadays..
they just drive you mad!

PP still not completed.
crap.
jialat!
dumb PP!
just wasting our time.
just making us stressed during the hols!
TSK!

should i attend?
i think i would feel real awkward though.
but its not very nice to deny either.
help?

cheer up, darling!
there's always a second try.
jiayou & cheer up! ♥

hot yet flu.

i shouldnt be blogging now.
progress of PP doesnt seemed much.
i have taken out loads of things.
crap.
have to chiong already!

singapore's 3 seasons: hot, hotter and hottest.
best.
the weather is seriously hot,
but im having a flu.
someone suggested me to go into a air conditioned place.
it helped with my flu somehow!

"here comes the green team" rocks man!
today's episode got junho and min ho!
a pity junho couldnt pass the 4m stage.
cus of his "speed bump" butt.
heh~

refrained myself.

i can seriously never concentrate in the day.
and so im being hardworking when night falls.
im working on my PP!
im about 45% done and im almost hitting 2000 words.
nice~

1 more week...

wished it was just that simple.

why dont they just understand?
everyone is different.
i can work better into the night,
but you die also force me to sleep.
i understand where you are coming from,
but that's just not it.

i am different.
i will be different.

well wishes everywhere.
i really hoped you had a happy birthday.
i really hope you will win this battle.
i really hope you would recover quickly and come back healthily.
happy birthday, my dear boy.

blast.

kept myself occupied.
kids,
fun and stressful to be with.

a jog did helped mentally,
but not physically.
im sure to ache everywhere for the next few days.
and maybe i should jog regularly to keep in shape.
i feel... old and weak somehow.

"two in the morning, two in the afternoon, one at night"
this was seriously pure random-ness,
but somehow it got interpreted in a nice way.

thanks. ♥

river of tears.

im worried.
im afraid.
im at a loss.
im trying to deceive myself.

it hit me even harder after knowing details.
im seriously very affected.
to a point that i would breakdown any moment.

photographs,
reminded me of you.
people whom we both know,
reminded me of you.
everything,
reminded me of you.
tears never fails to fall at those thoughts.
but it just doesnt leave me.

sleepless nights..
thoughts running through my mind.
young, talented and filled with potential.
what more does he need to suffer?
for all people, why him?
...
life is so unfair.

my dear boy,
shall we face this fact together?
promise me you'll fight this battle strongly all the way,
cus we are all in with you.
♥

seriously extremely depressed.
yes i am.

long bus rides.

amk to pasir ris.
to and fro.
long bus rides are ♥,
although my butt ached.

had mini seoul garden with the girls.
great day with the girls!
and they are teaching me the wrong things!
totally.
but i still love them so! ♥
we shall just see what happens by then.

tell me its not true..

i feel... awful.
i was seriously shocked.
all i can do is to worry for you,
since im not supposed to know about it.
i know you will fight hard to win this battle.
hope you will stay strong as usual.
this road might be tough,
but we are all here supporting you.
speedy recovery!

rainy days.

finally!
blogger is back to normal!
woooooh!
hope it remains normal all the way!
it better!

festive season,
so ice cream buffet postponed again.
didnt went out today as planned either.
argh!

now we know what's all these about.
now we know the true character of JYP and JYPE.
these are all conspiracy.
jay seriously deserves better!

2AM + 2PM

mesmerized by you.

so proud of myself!
i finished the history part of my PP!
but there are still many more to go.
dateline is going to be due soon!
am i left with burning midnight oil again?!
procrastinations sucks!

i feel so screwed.
i rather have attachments!
but "grass is always greener on the other side".
okies.
im just feeling very tired.
i have no idea why.
sleeping the whole day wont help.
maybe i should really get some exercise.

scream your lungs out.
it might help.

someday..

wooooh!
i wanted to post pictures of my newborn niece,
but blogger seemed so screwed up.
its been so long!!
anyways,
conclusion: kids/babies are always cute!

im finally going to meet sem 1 clique on friday!
weeee~
so excited!
miss all their craps!

ballads are currently the ♥!

i will make you smile.

dead beat.
the heat, the kids, the noise.
i think i "nua-ed" to much at home and indoors.
i feel like crap when its so hot.
makes everyone so restless.
thanks to the girls,
i got perked up!
sorry if i was very dead today.
promise to high with you all on saturday! ♥

ice cream buffet postponed it to saturday!
actually i also dont really know why,
but its okies!
weeeeeee~
saturday! saturday! saturday!
but i think i can just die with the huge crowd anywhere.

ion seriously suck.
its so hard to find the way around.
i pity the guy/people working at the american express.
i bet many people had asked him/them the way to swensens.
lol.

you dont have to cry.
it will be better in time.

ICE CREAM!

im so going to swensens!
ice cream buffet tomorrow!
♥ the girls so much!

i read my PP notes!
i typed a few words in my report.
but i got so distracted once again.
nevermind,
i will finish by this week!
(i hope)

somehow,
letting go made everything better.

perfect ballad.

i have to finish my PP within this week.
my internet will be down for a week,
cus the mio plan is expiring and my dad subscribed again.
and i dont know why the hell it needs to take a week.

ballads are always great.

again and again.

my piano teacher is evil!
i was just trying to be nice for once,
so i finished up my homework beforehand.
she took advantage of it and forced me to play the piano.
it might be an easy piece,
but its been about a year or so since i touched the piano.
although i have lost touch of it,
im surprised that i could still read the scores and play.
the feeling of having to play the piano after so long was great though.
but i hurt my finger!

PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP.
PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP.
PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP.
PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP. PP.
i ought to seriously start working on it.
knock some sense into me please!

ARGH!

blogger is getting on my nerves!
i hate the fact that i cannot post pictures.
i thought of switching to tumblr,
but its so complicated.
just something that i will never understand.
eeeeee!

i seriously have to set my priorities right.
i have not started on PP! *help!*
PP is hell of an irritating thing.
i cannot enjoy my break.
arghh!

and my mum is seriously evil!
IM STARTING ON A DIET!
so you should know what im talking about.
she's driving me mad.

*edited*
who are you to judge me like that?
its my fault that i backed out all of a sudden,
but was planning out the parts that tough?
you think you are really a hell of big shot?
why did i even apologized?
i had enough of you right from the beginning.
fuck off, bitch!

2PM - I Hate You

WHAAAAAAAAAAAT?!

i managed to drag myself out of the house.
irritatingly hot weather.
and why do i felt like the kids were rebelling?!
everyone was so restless.
no one listened to me at all.
they all drove me insane!
ARRGHHH!

maybe i have been avoiding this topic.
but the more you come to me,
the worse i feel.
everytime we talk about it,
我就觉得心好烦好烦.
i dont know how to respond to you anymore.
i felt like i have disappointed you in a way,
but i have made up my mind.
my heart always waver cus of you.
please dont do this to me...

it will never be the same.
you know, right?

its not 2PM without jaebeom..

laziness really kills.
i didnt touched on PP.
i didnt went to "work".
i didnt went to jog either.
aiyer! jialat!
ban me from YT till i finish my PP!

korea's singers are hot everywhere around the world,
a pity that their music industry is just in a huge mess.
i bet all of them, including jype and netizens,
regret everything extremely now!
only glad thing is that 2PM stood by him.
but its all too late.
2PM is no longer 2PM thanks to their actions!
get those brains working, please?

on a brighter note,
SS501 will be in Singapore for "Persona in Singapore" before christmas!
that's like the best thing that can ever happen.
chritmas is ♥!
so is SS501!

eh~

i found an excuse to not work on PP today.
i have gotten a flu,
from god-knows-where and how.
i had the tissue box around me wherever i went around the house.
and i cleaned the rooms.
despite all those sweat,
i discovered that i have put on weight!
all mummy's fault.
keep asking me to eat tea break and supper.
-.-

and she keeps forcing me to go and teach!
she wants me to stop video-ing in my room all day long.
i totally forgotten this is the september hols.
so im supposed to be slightly busier with teaching.
but i need to start on my PP this week!
die also must!
arghhh!

2PM is real cute and funny!
im like addicted to their videos already!
SS501 is kind of stagnant at the moment cus of Persona.
only all the fancams frm all the Personas and recent events.
all the irritating screams,
spoil the videos!
SS501,
come back quick!
so i wont be so bored watching others!

only you.

unbelievable.
i actually managed to dragged myself out of the house after going back home from piano lesson.
people who know me well enough,
you should understand uh!
adding on to it,
its a weekend!
so tanyimei & ngzhenling,
be extremely honored okies!
everything was random.
random movie, random walkings,
random food (in the cinema), random talkings.
a day fill with fun and laughter!
thanks for the wonderful day! ♥

its been only 1 week.
the album is out of stock!
but it shows how popular the boys are over here.
now i have to go back in another 2 weeks time.
should have just bought it last week without hesitation!
aiyer! argh!
seriously hate HMV for cheating my feelings so many times!
they better have stock the next time i go!
although im seriously not in a hurry to get it,
but i dont want to make so many wasted trips.
*accumulating in progress*

surprisingly,
i saw familiar faces in town.
only managed to crap with JK though.
first time our conversation was that long.
lol.

nothing better, than you.

i feel so constrained.
i hate it.
so stop it.
if only you knew.

nothing better




only you - 2PM

happy teachers' day.

yet another month has passed.
which means christmas is a month nearer!
which means november/december is approaching!
which means Persona in Singapore is a month nearer!
which means my PP submission dateline is due in a month and 7 days.

have been thinking.
so much so,
i couldnt sleep.
i think i had too much freedom that now,
i have a phobia of commitment.
having to let go of passion is hard.
but it seemed like having to go through another project would be a torment to me.
im stuck in the middle of 2 options.

never in my life,
have i ever thought that i would quit one day.